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Medical Records
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My Hereditary/Environmental, Words, Dyslexia, Mute/Withdrawn, “Autism”/Flight, Nature/Communion, Watcher, Excerpt, Inferior/Superior/Codependency, Stoicism/Victim/“Schizophrenia” Beginnings;
Alias and “Medical Records:”
First Psychological Report, 1979 (29th Year in Psychiatry, Paranoid Schizophrenic)
Discharge Summary ,1979, ( Paranoid Schizophrenic)
Second Psychological Report, 1981 ( Discharge Drug Rehab, (Psychological Adult)
Third Psychological Report, 1987 (Certified Psychological Adult)
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Hereditary/Environmental
I was born highly intelligent, idealistic, passionate, creative, gentle, sensitive, and steel-willed. These are the heredity, high risk characteristics for the environmental deficiency of social nurturing, thedisease of the germs of fear and its mutant forms called mental illness. The characteristics of the child who, not finding an ecstatic welcoming, touching, nurturing environment, cannot relate, and not knowing any better becomes controlled by fear and aptly rejects the world of people as not good enough. My sensitivity in low genius and my main environment one of neglect by my mother busy working, but without severe verbal or physical abuse, my reaction was that of moderate, not severe “autism.” These are the very superior characteristics that enabled me to block out the outside world, create an “autistic” fantasy world of loving, animated friends, provided the strength for a child to walk alone and the phoenix optimism that keep me alive through a half century deprivation of human social needs.
My brothers and sisters, born of lesser sensitivity and more common sense, adequately adopted the work ethic as love and became pillars of the community.
Words
Words. I was enamored of words, their nuances and rhyme formed my esthetic dance with life. Words. Their sounds were an instant love affair; their meanings, colors, and shadings were a natural wonder, a communal undulating dance with a rapturous world. Words are the wondrous connecting filaments forming images of love or fear, attraction or danger, creating our outer and inner worlds. Words are the building blocks, the bars of self-made prisons that lock fear in and people out, or the flowers of the boundless land of serendipity where streams flash their magic rainbows blazoning pots of gold far beyond the wildest dreams. They are the growing information passed down from generation to generation forming the basis of our evolving society still stuck in the primitive belligerence of power and prestige.
Dyslexia
Dyslexia, a very un-rhymatic sounding word, was a yet unheard-of -word. Some shapes and sounds naturally flow together and some are put together roughly. The strong cadence within me easily transposed shapes and sounds to flow with my inner music. I learned that I easily reversed letters, revised syllables and misplaced words if I did not pay strict attention.
Mute/Withdrawn
Mute. I was a child who, loving words, found few chances and few words to speak to people. The words I knew about pretty things and little happy joys did not seem to be people words except in church for other people. The words, “Mama, do you love me” were too important to ever make it out of my throat. And the words usually spoken to me in school were words to shame me. I was not going to agree that I was bad and it was too fearful to say anything that might be glared at and shamed at.
Mute. Neglected by my always-busy mother, waiting in the world of people for the welcoming words of love I never heard, waiting on the edges in the terrible fear that I was bad and not worth loving had an ever cumulative effect, decreasing the words I shared with people, lowering the degree of attention, and increasing the closed-off times up to the day I encountered despairing physical abuse, attempted to die ... then shut tight the outside door and enclosed me inside my secret, survival world called “autism.”
Autism/Flight
Internalized fear triggered the automatic survival mechanism of flight or fight, arresting cognitive development, my conscious awareness stuck in the automatic, instinctive subsconscious. As naturally as withdrawing my hand from a burning stove, I shut out the world of people and created an “autistic” fantasy survival world of love and beauty with flower and animal friends. Alienated from people, I entered into a life-sustaining relationship with nature. The spirit of shared excitement, of growing, of love of life, of our own alikeness and worship of God, our Creator, connected us.
Nature/Communion
I was a child alone. I felt the welcoming aura of the tree, a touch of euphoria inviting me in. I spiraled myself into the trunk and entered down into the brown swell of elongated roots. I moved through taut layers into a stream flowing with the stinging strength of majestic pasts and began the upward rise. I flowed into branches, squeezed out to a tip, parted the covering green film, and peeked out at the bold, laughing mountain in the distance. On up into the topmost upright twig, I peeked my head out at the apex of blue. Whirling to the dance of ecstasy with the tree, I am beautifully loved. It was from this exalted vantage point, when I was a child, that I whispered my secret to these, my friends, “I’m going to be a writer when I grow up.” I was a child without a clue that humans have two ways, physically and psychologically, to grow up, that the things I spoke of would not occur until I had passed the half century mark. The tree and wind in constant communion with the sky, their life force the ecstatic dance of unblemished faith and acceptance, assented in loving tones.
Now, over half a century old and transcended into a loving relationship with myself, people, and God, I still delight in walking outside, feeling the sky wafting around me and the outreaching branches of a tree in my front yard, I still rejoice in communing with nature.
Watcher Voice
Because my conscious awareness was halted in my subconscious I was not aware that my developing conscious awareness voice was mine. I thought the voice I could consciously hear in my head was the voice of THE WATCHER, the voice of God, the voice in my head that told me I was a good girl.
Excerpt*
. “created my own perfect world of love and beauty that I could not live without....I touched the dainty crown on my head and felt, inside me, the sparkle of the diamonds. I whirled around and all the dust and drabness of my clothes changed into a full length white and silver, fairy dress. Blue birds and yellow birds and white birds with long floating wings and tails flew around me and sang joy to me. When I lay down to rest, they covered me with a white lacy sheet and circled a love watch over me. Rabbits and chipmunks and squirrels played around me, listened to me, talked to me and told me I was a good little girl and God loved me....I quit vomiting....When I had to go into the presence of people, doing my duty of work and in school like I was supposed to, I stood inside myself, a protective numbness surrounding my stiff body....The WATCHER
telling me I was a good girl.” *From ESCAPE FROM PSYCHIATRY.
Inferior/Superior/Codependency
I entered my teens; my animated, survival nature world was outgrown; the world of real people was the only place there was. The ending of flight left me in the delusional hierarchy role of the helpless, passive victim, and the valuing of myself as treated by others, with retaliatory blaming and injuring of oneself. Fight conceives the delusion of superiority, the arrogant role of the controlling bully, and the valuing of oneself by the grandiose power over others, with retaliatory blaming and injuring of others.
The controlling “superior” bully and the passive “inferior” victim form a natural co-dependency. The terror-induced flight syndrome, with blaming and injuring of self, is often called mental illness. The terror-induced fight syndrome, with blaming and injuring of others, is often called psychiatry.
Stoicism/Victim/“Schizophrenia” Beginnings
I was socially inept and ignored. My defense against fear was now a less-effective stoic blunting of thoughts and emotions called schizophrenia. In stoic, growing grief, I waited for the door of love
to open and invite me out into the world of people. THE WATCHER, my mind-consciousness that I thought was the voice of God, was increasingly a savagely berating god. I did not even know enough to know that if the communion were not unconditional unity, truth, and love, it was not of God. I graduated valedictorian of my high school class. My grades fell to F’s in college. I was 20 years old when my resources were exhausted and, collapsing from the grief of not being loved, I was committed to psychiatry.
Electric Shock
I was subjected to electric shock. Coming to after being knocked from the injuring of my brain, I was progressively disoriented, unstable. and reduced to lurching when I walked. Shocked every other day, lurching from my brain injury, I escaped after four. Just as after surviving any horrible disaster too horrible to be real, the getting my brains knocked out with electricity, I was a laughing maniac with hysterical amnesia. Psychiatry touts the hysteria as remission of illness. In deep psychological shock, With the feeling of not being there, terror undulated underneath my hysterical laughter. Nine years later the flashbacks began. Thirteen years later the smell of camphor, the oil they had smeared on my temples so the burn would not show on the outside, engulfed me and I exploded into suicidal and homicidal terror and despair.
Drugs
Drugs were forced by hypo until I swallowed them. The drugs psychiatry told me were good for me and could not hurt me in any way — the physical sicknesses were only temporary things necessary for my cure — were phenothiazine, originally, at the time, and currently a nerve toxin, a pesticide. The drugs destroying my body and usurping my soul, I periodically alternated vegetable apathy and exploding suicidal and homicidal terror and despair drug rages. One morning through the drug fog, I woke up, “The drugs were killing me!” I called the current psychiatrist, “What do psychiatrists think in their head? My mind is cured when my body is dead!” I slammed the phone down and never swallowed psychiatry drugs again.
Drug Withdrawal
Physical upsets, anxiety, and depression occur in any brain-targeting drug withdrawal. In mild addicting drugs such as caffeine, they are mild. In the powerful psychiatry drugs, both the using drugs and the withdrawal are life threatening.
Alias
My father named me Frances Leona Olson after his grandmother. My name changed many times in my life as I sought to find a way to acceptance and love in the world. Alias are, after all, another automatic defensive action and attempt to induce a different livable image. My first name changed one final time, about 4 months after I found loving people with the joy of healing and life. A person said something like, “You are flourishing green and growing with little white laughter blossoms, a comfort to others; your name ought to be Clover.” My last name changed when I married. Now my legal name is Clover Smith.
and "Medical Records"
Contrary to real medical records, it seems “psychiatric medical records” are only keep for a period of about 4 years before destroyed — perhaps so that the progressive exacerbation of illness by psychiatry cannot be detailed — and often access to them is denied. I was able to obtain a few records from the last few years of my psychiatric experience. The specific name of “psychiatrists” or “hospitals” are unimportant and are deleted.
In 1979. I had been one of psychiatry chronically mentally ill for 29 years. I had quit swallowing psychiatrists drugs four years earlier. I still weigh 105 lb.. from the plummeting, life-threatening weight loss I had sustained when I quit psychiatry drugs cold turkey. The tardive dyskinesia was still noticeable but no longer severely disabling. Psychiatric drugs were usually forced by hypo whenever I was locked up, escalating the uncontrollable muscle movement. It is still two years
before I would escape psychiatry.
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Certification letter, February 16, 1979
Department of Health and Hospitals
Mr. Albert ...
Assistant City Attorney...
This letter is to inform you of the reasons for which i am certifying Ms. Francis Longacker... the patient was admitted to .... on 2/ 14/ 79 having just been discharged from the hospital on 2/ 9/ 79. the previous week she had hallucinated her dead mother’s voice telling her to commit suicide. This time, although not hallucinating, she overdosed on Valium and threatened to stab herself. She has required psychiatry hospitalizations in December, 1978, and last year at ... and multiple
psychiatric hospitalizations prior to that. She has made multiple suicide attempts.
She has continuously failed to follow through with outpatient treatment. She as failed to maintain herself in her own apartment and has been refused placement at the boarding at the boarding home she
moved to--after one day.
An additional complication is that the patient believes she has cancer; (she has had a cancer of the parotid gland in the past). She has been thoroughly examined by two ENT specialist and has no evidence for cancer.
In the hospital she has thrown hot coffee on a nurse, repeatedly thrown food trays, and said she would kill herself if given the chance.
We feel she is a danger to herself and others and gravely disabled at this time. There is no likelihood she would continue with the long-term treatment she needs without certification--indeed, at the present time, she is a candidate for residential treatment.
If there is any way further I can be of assistance, please do not hesitate to let me know.
Sincerely yours,
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OF INTEREST IN THIS LETTER: This is when I was committed to the Mental Nursing Home, a guard at the front door 24/7 from which, following the directions of my mentor, a bug on the window sill, I escaped through the front door 2 weeks later.
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First Psychological Report, 11/ 16/ 79
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11/16/79 FOSS, F. LEONA CORTICAL FUNCTION NO; 5113 HOSPITAL NO: 381
475-1 Room No:1321-1 Age 49 Sex: Female, Referred by: ......... MD
Referral Reason: Schizophrenia. Results based on: Cortical Function
Test Battery.
DISCUSSION OF RESULTS: Leona is a generally cooperative but somewhat confused appearing woman hospitalized on the psychiatric unit for apparent schizophrenic reaction. She showed rather flat effect throughout the various testing sessions, and as mentioned, was cooperative and attentive during the sessions, but did once attempt to escape while being escorted back to the unit following testing. When asked why she was being hospitalized, she stated because she was "upset and attempted suicide in the past."
The various perceptual and intellectual tasks were performed in a mixed fashion. She achieved a score of only 7 on the Bogen-Street, having difficulty forming precepts to the fragmented pictures. Many of
her responses were of projective quality, such as "a person fell all to pieces, shattered." She did place at the 90th percentile on the Raven Progressive Matrices. The Wechsler Adult Intelligence Scale showed verbal, Performance and Full Scale IQ.s of 114, 118, and 117 respectively. There was a slight to moderate degree of interest scatter but no significant indications of organic dysfunction for her age group.
The MMPI showed a validity profile suggesting some exaggeration of symptoms. This is often produced in acute disturbances and can also be seen as a "cry for help." Nearly all the clinical scales were
significantly elevated, with the highest elevations on the scales for schizophrenia, paranoia, psychasthenia and depression. This profile pattern is usually one of a schizophrenic reaction, paranoid type. These individuals are often described as withdrawn and experiencing flat effect. Symptoms frequently include schizophrenic delusions and hallucinations. Social histories often include periods of reasonable vocational adjustment, although inefficiency and fatigue preceding
psychotic reactions leads to a marked decrease in the ability to function. The MMPI sub scales show that the elevation of depression is produced on an emphases on subjective depression and mental dullness. The elevation on the paranoid scale comes from an emphases of persecutory ideas and poignancy. All of the schizophrenic sub scales are elevated, with the highest elevations on lack of ego mastery, cognitive, and bizarre sensory experiences. One of the mania sub scales, that for psychomotor acceleration, was elevated. The remaining sub scales showed elevations on narcissism-hypersensitivity, introspective-critical attitudes, inferiority-personal discomfort, and
physical-somatic concerns.
The Rorschach Inkblot protocol was fairly short, but showed many highly elaborated and fairly well synthesized responses. Both of the usual human precepts were noted, as well as several of the popular
responses. Although some poor form quality responses were produced, form quality overall is adequate, suggesting somewhat intact reality testing. Some distinctly hysterical features are noted. Strong
indications of a schizoid orientation, as well as suggestions of primitive splitting mechanisms, are evident in the record.
The remainder of the tests were noncontributory.
IMPRESSION:
This cortical function protocol brings forward a woman whose intellectual and perceptual functions remain essentially intact and within the Bright Normal range with no significant indications of
organic dysfunction. Present functioning is generally of schizophrenic quality, but some features in the record are atypical from the usual schizophrenic features. The lack of severely regressed features along with high intellectual functioning and good synthetic activity on the Rorschach suggests a more favorable prognostic outlook and suggests that she may well fit into a borderline personality to borderline schizophrenic diagnostic category, of a schizoaffective type, with both
paranoid and depressive features. Presently she appears in a depressed phrase, and the instability of her affective level may be an important contributing factor to her periodic decompensation to a psychotic level of functioning.
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My REFLECTIONS ON THIS REPORT
A. Interesting Things.
1. “ This cortical function protocol brings forward a woman whose intellectual and perceptual functions remain essentially intact and within the Bright Normal range with no significant indications of organic dysfunction...no significant indications of organic dysfunction
for her age group.” Even with psychiatric electricity and drug caused brain damage, with both long term and short term, my IQ some 30 some points lower than on my college entrance exam, I never had any disabling physical brain problem except when I was under the influence of the electricity or drugs.
2. The report notes my “inferiority-personal discomfort” from being labeled a worthless non-person, “physical-somatic concerns” caused by psychiatry's drugs, and “hysteria” from electric shock. All of the symptoms mentioned are the third stage reactions to severe and prolonged persecution, ie: fear built up into terror, anger into rage, anxiety into panic, and grief into homicidal and suicidal agony and despair.
3. About severely regressed features. My stoic deadness way of attempting to not feel the pain, called the flat effect by psychiatry, left the muscles of my face, unexercised and changed little. My
younger brother, at age 28, not having seen me for several years, came to a family visit when I was 32 years of age and mistook me for a fourteen year old niece. Now, my features are altered first by
psychiatric induced severe weight gain loss then loss, hysterical outbursts, drug explosions and withdrawal. I no longer had severely repressed features. Quitting their drugs I had gained some sense of reality.
4. The real problems are listed. All of the schizophrenic sub scales are elevated, with the highest elevations on lack of ego mastery, cognitive and bizarre sensory experiences. CURE THESE, I’M CURED!
A. Lack of ego mastery:
1. Psychiatry labeling me a non-person was devastating and not beneficial to self-esteem.
2. I was the “controlled inferior” of the codependency and my view of myself and value was ever dependent on how the “superior controller” treated me. Treating me like a worthless thing needing to die, I acted like a worthless thing needing to die.
3. The one person I vitally needed to love me was me. Therefore to gain ego mastery and be healed I would need to get out of the superior psychiatrist/inferior me codependency sickness (even if it had not had the deadly force of electricity, drugs (and knife) and get into an
equally-worthy person relationship of love and truth with loving and truthful people.
B. Cognitive:
1. I was without cognitive perception, “having difficulty forming precepts to fragmented pictures.”
2. Electricity and drugs disabled rather than aided cognitive thinking.
3. Therefore, to recover, I would need to get out of brain damaging treatment and into being taught cognitive mental tools of unity, truth, and love.
C. Bizarre sensory experiences: .
1. Picture a grandmother rocking on her porch on a summer evening and recall the smell of the new-mown lawn, the feel of the breeze on your face, the taste of the spice cookies, and her the voice singing so sweet you know it reaches heaven.
2. Congratulations! You just had a seeing, smelling, feeling, tasting, and hearing hallucination! And were delighted! If our minds could not remember or even create what never was we would not have a human brain!
3. When terror raises the picture, we humans are terrified. My mind flashing-back to the smell of camphor, the oil they had smeared on my temples before applying the electrodes horrifying electric shock, I exploded into suicidal and homicidal terror.
4. Therefore to no longer have terrified bizarre sensory experiences, no longer subject me to terrifying experiences.
5. Empower me with the vital human needs of unity, truth, and love, the cognitive development and healing needed so I can overcome the past terrifying events and have affective discipline over my own life. CURE THESE, I'M CURED!
4. Psychasthenia means a morbid mental state characterized by mental fatigue , obsessive anxiety, phobias, tic, etc. And this is after 29 years of psychiatry healing me. I was certainly sick and tired with no end in sight except by death from psychiatry’s physical maltreatment or
my hopeless suicide. When I found people with real healing, I was into well being in 6 months.
5. I was dying for lack of the vital human needs of unity, truth, and love and psychiatry supplied me with devastating lack. My scream for help was dully noted but nothing changed. So again, “screaming for help” and receiving the opposite, I am discharged more screaming, more hopeless and helpless, more suicidal and homicidal, than when I entered.
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Hospital Medical Record
Discharge Summery Francis Longacker
Date Admitted 11/23/79 Date Discharged 11/28/79
CURRENT DATA BASE
CHIEF COMPLAINT: This forty-nine year old, white, divorced female who is well known to.... was admitted from the Psychiatric Emergency Room on a Mental Health Hold after a suicidal gesture by overdose. On admission, she stated, “My Doctor... wants me dead.”
PRESENT ILLNESS: Since her last .... discharge, the patient was referred to .... She left there after two weeks and returned to her apartment. The patient was hospitalized for two weeks on the Impatient
Service at ....Hospital from 10/24 to 11/9., and has been on day care since that time. She has been treated psychiatrically by her Family Physician, Dr. ... , who apparently wants to terminate with her. There was also a question of the patient’s insurance running out. On admission, she provided little coherent history, but apparently, she was escorted off the ....Hospital Grounds last week. Last evening she had talked with Doctor .... on the phone while she was ingesting Valium
and Dalmane. Her recollection is that he told her to go ahead and kill herself, and then he hung up on the phone. After ingesting the pills, she apparently opened the lock so the ambulance people could get in. She stated, “everyone wants me dead.” She states that she is not sure if she wants to die, but wants to “get help.” and that she cannot get that help.
REVIEW OF SYSTEMS: Unremarkable.
PHYSICAL EXAMINATION: Pulse 80. Blood pressure, 102/70. Physical examination unremarkable except for the presence of charcoal on her lips, status post lavage, and an old 7 cm. surgical scar on the right
side of her neck.
MENTAL STATUS EXAMINATION: An alert, red-haired, adult, white woman that was dressed in a bathrobe. Motor activity is decreased. Her speech is soft, whinny and child-like, and is very halting. She constantly looks around as though confused. Her effect is depressed and hostile. Thoughts are very disorganized with some blocking. There are no frank delusions except for thoughts of people wanting her dead. Her communications are vague, and the patient does not present a coherent history secondary to her tangentiality. She is oriented times three, recalls three of three objects in five minutes. Serial 3’s are normal. She relates in a childish, dependent, and helpless manner.
LABORATORY DATA: SMA-6 within normal limits. WBC, 7,600; Repatocrit, 45.4. Urinalysis, within normal limits. Drug screen demonstrates phenobarbital, . 6 (normal for . 0 to 6. 0). Alcohols are negative.
STS, non-reactive.
DEPARTMENT OF HEALTH AND HOSPITALS NAME: LONGACKER, Francis , . . . GENERAL HOSPITAL . . RESIDENT IN PSYCHIATRY
HOSPITAL COURSE: The patient was, as usual, quite hostile, demanding, and noncooperative with the Treatment Program on the Ward. She struggled with a Medical Student who was involved with her care.
Conversations with Dr. . . . , her Family Practitioner, he stated that he had mistakenly tried to treat her psychiatrically, and after realizing that he could not do this, he had been unable to find a
Psychiatrist to continue her care. He will continue to look for a private Psychiatrist for the patient. On the hospitalization, the patient refused the referral back to the . . .Mental Health System. Voluntary hospitalization was offered when her mental health hold expired, but when she refused this, she was discharged.
FORMULATION; This is a patient who most likely suffers from chronic schizophrenia or a very severe borderline personality disorder with chronic and recurrent suicidal gestures. Current precipitant would appear to be her rejection by her Family Physician and her discharge from . . . Hospital.
PLANS AND RECOMMENDATIONS FOR FURTHER TREATMENT: The patient was discharged when her mental health hold expired. She refused voluntary hospitalization. Discharge medications, none. Patient was offered a Mental Health Center referral in that she has been involved with the . . .Hospital System for several years; she adamantly refused this, and stated that she would find her own Psychiatrist.
DISCHARGE DIAGNOSIS: 1. Chronic paranoid-schizophrenia.
2. Recurrent suicidal gestures.
. . . STAFF PSYCHIATRIST
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My Reflections on this Discharge Summery:
A. “Her speech is soft, whinny and child-like, and is very halting. She relates in a childish, dependent, and helpless manner.” My psychological development had been arrested by overwhelming fear when I was a small child and I still looked out at the world from my subconscious, not conscious awareness. My speech was the whinny softness of a helpless, dependent, terribly needy child. I was confused -- I though psychiatry was supposed to help people. I had to keep looking until I found someone to help me! Would they want to help me this time or would they force or try to force drugs.
B. Her effect is depressed and hostile. “Everyone wants me dead...wants to get help but cannot get that help...would find own psychiatrist.” Without help, without hope I was dead. Each time I
found out the psychiatrist there would not help me. I keep trying to find a psychiatrist who would recognize that I was a person and then treating me as if I were a person would tell me all about the world so I could be a person just like everyone else. I never found a psychiatrist who recognized that I was a person with the vital human needs of unity, truth, and love.
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SECOND PSYCHOLOGICAL REPORT: 10/7/81. Six months after my first Alcoholics Anonymous meeting. Taken at the end of my 45 days in a Drug Treatment Facility and compared to my psychological entrance testing at this facility.
PSYCHOLOGICAL ASSESSMENT Re-assessment date: 10/7/81
CONCEPTUAL: No improvement, excellent verbal skills, very good abstract and conceptual skills.
COGNITIVE PERCEPTUAL: All test scores regressed to well within normal ranges. Changes in self-perception and activities towards self, suggest deep surrender and acceptance.
EMOTIONAL: As above, all testing normal, very large reduction in depression, guilt, shame, feeling of worthlessness.
NEEDS; Increase in acceptance, self-regard are consistent with increases in needs for achievement, exhibition, and dominance and a large decrease in abasement.
DEFENSES: Normal defenses. Patient needs conceptual framework to complete acceptance and assimilation. Testing suggest presence of normal mechanisms of denial and perceptual defensiveness usually associated with good "ego functioning."
RECOMMENDATIONS: Patient's long history of psychiatric treatment and the consequent elaboration of third-order effects make it important that she find a sponsor and AA friends who are accepting and who will refrain from any further reinforcement of these effects.
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My Reflections on THIS ASSESSMENT
1. What is focused on is what grows. Psychiatry focuses on the person being the problem. The person’s problem grows. Psychiatry's induced third order effects referred to are fear intensified into terror, anger into rage, anxiety into panic, and grief into homicidal and suicidal despair, etc.. Hysteria, schizophrenia, paranoia, psychasthenia and depression effects were produced by psychiatry and are effects of worse and worse off. unto death.
People of Unity, Truth, and Love focus on these real things and solving the problem of fear with kindness, mental tools, working through terror, practicing serenity, etc., is recovery and well-being.
You work for what you want and that’s what you get! Who woulda thought?
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THIRD PSYCHOLOGICAL TEST: 1/16/86. Six years later, knowing I was cured of being ignorant, isolated and terrified, knowing I had learned how to choose unity, truth, and love, I found a doctor who was willing to recommend me to a psychologist for testing.
PSYCHOLOGICAL AND FAMILY SERVICES
PSYCHOLOGICAL CONSULTATION January 16, 1986 Name: Francesca Leona FOSS
Date of Birth: 02/21/30 Date of Testing: 01/14/86 CA: 55 Test
Administered: Minnesota Multiphasic Personality Inventory
TEST RESULTS AND INTERPRETATION: Although the patient appears to have been quite defensive regarding her responses to the MMPI items, this profile appears to be valid. it seems likely that she is attempting to present herself in the best possible light, tending to downplay or
ignore whatever difficulties she may be experiencing. The clinical scales all fall within the normal range of functioning, suggesting that this individual is either not aware of any major problems or, if she is aware of them, tends to cope adequately in spite of these problems. She denies depression, anxiety, or other disruptive symptoms. The patient displays adequate ego strength and appears to be comfortable with her sense of self. She tends to enjoy social relationships and social
activities. There are no indications of organicity, severe emotional turmoil, or cognitive disorders. I found no indication of anything untoward or why this person was referred for testing.
Joseph J. ......., MA
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Reflections ABOUT THIS CONSULTATION
I BELIEVE I AM ONE OF THE FEW PERSONS IN THE USA CERTIFIED MENTALLY WELL!
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